My gym is a wonderful mix of cross-sizing so it's very comfortable knowing I'm not the ONLY big girl trying to uncover my God bod. Like every other gym, though, there IS a slant of teensy, tight, outfit-clad mamasitas running around, like the boot camp girls (Yes, it's as intense as it sounds so power to them! They deserve the props!). In VAST contrast, I'm the chick who's going in with mis-matched clothes, baggy t-shirts (many times from my husband's drawers), bottoms ranging from the too big to the too snug and my hair is hastily clipped in the back (if there's time, I might "fancy it up" with a braid). It's seriously sad. I will also never be that chick who puts on a full face of make-up to go sweat and it's highly unlikely my boobs will ever defy gravity in the way that I've seen at my gym (ahem!). I'm that girl who mouths the lyrics sung on my MP3 player while puffing away on the treadmill because it motivates me and in class, I'm the big girl who COULD hide in the back but has the audacity to stand just behind the instructor. I know my ample behind is in the face of many but I'm comfortable there. It's true I can fall short of others in that I don't always get the moves in Zumba, that I have a tricky knee that doesn't allow for the full range of movement and I'm working on my strength. It's all okay though as long as I can walk away knowing I did my best (or was in search of it!). If I make a fool of myself, Lord, just let me be a fool who's getting healthy! Besides, I like to imagine I'm motivating someone behind me who's thinking, "If THAT gal can do it, so can I!"
It can be a daunting thing to walk in amongst the power, sleekness and beauty of the "maintenance" people. It can make one feel as though the goals are ever so far away! As I get healthier, though, I find the perception of my status is starting to change (if only a millimeter at a time) from "Never Me" to "Someday...".
Meaningful Movement: 30 minutes of stepladder on the treadmill.
Foods that fit in a baby bowl, day 32:
-Church pot luck food: mandarine orange cheesecake bar, raspberry cheesecake filled flaky square, pasta salad and monkey bread
-Church pot luck food: raspberry filled flaky square and sour cream cake
NOTE: I know my sugar day is Monday but I was HUNGRY and I ate what was available!
-Honey Nut Cheerios and milk
-2 scrambled eggs with a slice of American cheese
-Lenten fast: Dinner
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