Day 36 - March 29 - Weigh In, Week 5

Starting Weight: 233, Feb. 22
Last week: 224
This week: 222

This is a HUGE celebration today, especially after looking at my last couple of days. I'm SO grateful that the scale moved enough to make my 2 pound goal. (Yes, there is a double standard with the scale. I'm not allowed to beat myself up when the numbers aren't kind but I'm TOTALLY allowed to celebrate when it goes my way! *G*)

I woke up shortly before 4 am this morning FULL of regret: not sticking with my "free day" goal from last week, not drinking more water, not getting in more fruits and veggies, not tightening up my eating, not going to the gym on Sunday and not doing an exercise DVD at home when I didn't go to the gym. I was DREADING my weigh-in today because I truly didn't want to report the weight gain that I KNEW was going to be my fate. It was quite the pity party.

I was so sick of my own inner voice that I picked up a book to read, Beth Moore's "So Long, Insecurity (You've Been a Bad Friend)". (I'm going to her simulcast based on this book on April 24th and it's a GREAT read! I wish someone had given me this book when I was 11 years old. I'd recommend for moms to read it before passing it on to their girls but, boy, I wish I'd had this wisdom BEFORE I had to learn some unnecessary lessons on my own.) The first thing my eyes landed on was this:

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.
Hebrews 10: 35-36 (NIV)

The next thing I read was "We all need God."

Was this God giving me a pep talk or what?!?! He is so faithful! I want to memorize this scripture and take it into my BONES:
So do not throw away your confidence: Interesting that the translation uses the command "do not throw away". Confidence is earned and is SUCH a gift. To trivialize it as disposable garbage would be to weaken my efforts and devalue the work I've done so far. I will not throw away my confidence.
it will be richly rewarded: There have been so many blessings already. I'm excited to see what God has in store for the BBE and what doors will open with better health. To finally show my daughter what a healthy mommy looks like will be a rich reward indeed.
You need to persevere : This makes me think of one of my other favorite passages of scripture: "Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. " (Philippians 3:12-14)
so that when you have done the will of God : The BBE was fully a gift from God. I think the biggest regret would be not to pursue the will of God in my efforts.
you will receive what he has promised : I will finally get to see my GOD BOD!!!

Showing Progress:
-When I started working on the treadmill, I'd sometimes put my hands rest hands just above my hips and there were chunks on both sides that I could cup in my hands. Those chunks are gone!
-After 5 weeks:
-Sitting Leg Press: 90 pounds to 150 pounds (3 sets of 15)
-Highest treadmill setting: 4.0 for 1 minute to 4.3 for 2 minutes
-Beginning Toning: 5 pound weights to 8 pound weights
-Added another riser to my step bench (making it a grand total of TWO. *g*)
-My hubby says he can tell I'm getting smaller!
-My butt no longer has shelf space! (I swear you could've set a drink on it!)

Meaningful Movement: 1 hour of Zumba and 1 hour of Beginning Toning

Foods that fit in a baby bowl, Day36:

-mango

-Red Baron personal pepperoni pizza with added pineapple

-1/2 hamburger with onion gravy and rice
-Nutella and banana smoothie
-Lenten fast: dinner